Knowledge may hinder happiness, but it is worth it- it empowers decision making.
The thing about growing up and the choices that alter our lives, is that the people who play it safe sometimes live with regrets, and while it’s good to plan it is also wise to live in the moment.
Innocence, and how it is impacted by knowledge gained about the human condition – the evil humans can inflict on each other. We preserve it through societal rules and entrusting families create boundaries for a child’s growth, for it represents our inner saint, which every one has. Some might like to think the more we know the more our inner devil grows.
See this is where it becomes complicated because gaining more knowledge does not impact purity. Yet it can feel like it at times, the beast of knowledge and the ways it can grow.
A humans ongoing relationship with imperfectness, vulnerability, immaturity, dependency and knowing that they are inherently worthy starts young when learning about being in the world as a human.
The relationship with these inherent qualities every person needs can detrimentally be impacted by the quest of knowledge and also remediated by it. Every time one gain more knowledge of the more complex and harsher
aspects of life one has to make space for it.
Seeking to break one’s own innocence in the quest for knowledge is quite
normal. We want to know what we don’t know.
Everyone starts out with different basics about the world and there
are those who find solace in making a connection with others when breaking the rules to know more.
Testing the bounds of our existence is the most conscious thing we can do.
That is why we develop reason to balance it.
So this quest for knowledge may take us down a dark path once you choose a
fork in the road we can sometimes go into very dark places. Sometimes we might feel as though we cannot turn back, that the path we have chosen to go down is our final destination.
But that is never the case, one’s life is always one’s own- it is what one
makes it. We can always turn back and select another route, there are always
more options. The hard part is perception.
The thing with growing up, is everyone has different intelligence- all kinds
are useful to an extent. While it is good to stay in touch with peers who are different, having boundaries to the demons of others is also utmost.
For how others see you can also shape you.
Navigating all the human interpersonal relationships needed for connection
and growth. Maintaining the ones that suit you as you were born, a beautiful
mess of ancestry made present.
Finding those connections can sometimes be a challenge. The people that grow you but also support you when you fall- they contribute to life’s beauty. Oh everyone has a moment they stumble or fall over in life.
The many things that make and break an individual- now that list is endless.
It is how one navigates the times in chaos that really develop character.
And it is good to have a depth of character. It means you have gotten up and
brushed yourself off more times than you can count.
It is also one thing to have character and another to be a character.
Better to have it than be it.
While we can plan – the one thing we can never plan for is the actions of
others. That is, the people who are unable to be constructive due to their own
attachment to turmoil, the people who will derail the lives of others because
they want to take a center stage (because they are in effect creating their own
fable). And then there are the times you might find yourself to be one of those people, one that maybe has not been the most constructive person for the people around you-now having that insight that is sometimes the hardest part.
All these unaccounted variables to factor in, in the game of life.
Even with the right tools for the job of navigating human interaction, such
as boundaries, self-esteem, assertiveness and respect, there will always be
those that do not know how to respond to what they themselves do not have
within them.
And you can only control yourself- that is the fun part.
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